Posted 21 November 2007 - 01:10 PM
Then I've got one kid misbehaving and one having meltdowns. When do I get to go have my meltdown? Got youngest's first ever basketball practice tonight and need to clean b-ball shoes, clean the kitchen, make dinner and get out of here in the next hour and 1/2.
Still haven't had time to let my tears out. I feel like there's a bubble of emotion waiting to burst at any moment. Watch them come right in the middle of my youngest's basketball practice. Then I'll have one more reason to cry. I hate people seeing my weak moments.
Well, time to suck it up again. Can't wait to put head to pillow - but then I have to wake up to cleaning the house and cooking turkey dinner for hubby and mom-in-law. Bring on the wine....
Posted 21 November 2007 - 01:56 PM
Seriously thinking of driving over there and having a glass of wine with you. One thing at a time love, try not too look into the day any further than you have too. Tell that hubby to do something!
Posted 21 November 2007 - 02:03 PM
Posted 21 November 2007 - 03:14 PM
Oh sister, hang in there honey. I know, it seems so all consuming at times (and it is). Hey, if you need a wine recommendation, say no more.
Love ya and happy day.
Posted 21 November 2007 - 03:21 PM
I'm probably what one would consider a pretty tough cookie, with a heart of gold. I hate to show my weaknesses and vulnerability to anyone, even close friends. I have since changed my tune, and will not hide my pain and upsetment behind a shield anymore.
It is what it is; I am in a state of medical problems now, I will not hide or pretend they do no exist to anyone, especially myself. I allow myself to cry (I find it relieves the pain for some reason), I speak to my maker and ask "why".
I guess my point is you are entitled to a 5-10 minute meltdown whenever you need it. It's very therapeutic.
Maybe Sweet can pick me up on the way over for that glass of wine.
Have a lovely Thanksgiving and wishing you a perfect day!
It is what it is...........
Posted 21 November 2007 - 05:15 PM
Got thru practice just fine. I had forgotten to eat today! (could have been part of my problem?!) Got my kitchen clean and didn't want to mess it up so we ate out on the way home. I feel better now that the day is winding down. Got little one in the shower and big one and friend I'm babysitting for are in quiet time watching TV.
*sigh* Me time.
Thanks for the good vibes everyone!
Posted 22 November 2007 - 12:22 PM
I just logged on...but I sure hope you had a better evening and with any luck got a restful nights sleep to make up for the bad day yesterday. Hopefully, you awoke to a much better day today (Happy Thanksgiving)! By the way, it's only my opinion but I don't think there is anything wrong in asking for help when you need it whether it's emotionally or otherwise (it takes courage to admit that we need help as well sometimes especially when we are feeling overwhelmed and I hope you try to remember to give yourself credit for being as strong as we obviously all know you are!)....hang in there!
Posted 22 November 2007 - 09:15 PM
I think I speak for most everyone when I say
we love the oppertunity give hugs & words of encouragement!
You can deprive the body but the soul needs chocolate
my HMO makes me wear a helmet...
Posted 23 November 2007 - 03:48 AM
Posted 23 November 2007 - 09:39 AM
I was glad to read that practice went fine, you got your kitchen clean and that you ate on the way home, so not to have to mess with dinner
Also, if you can do it... see if you can't think about one thing at a time, rather than overwhelming yourself with all that you have to do. This is how I "try" to do it: I plan, think about it and then just work on one thing at a time. (I don't have a young family... (anymore.... whew!), so I know you have things "happen with little ones"that aren't "just happen" With that in mind, just be spontaneous and do what you can do... if there are things you didn't get done... OH WELL!!! (I've had alot of time to get the "seasoning right" on THAT little recipe... but then I know I've got a couplea years on you )!
I cooked for hubby, Mom, two stepsons, a step-grandson, my brother, sister-in-law and their son. (They make a cook feel good, because there wasn't much left of the turkey and ham dinner)! lol
My sister-in-law came early just to help and I was getting ready to jump in the shower! Anyway, she was great help, as was my hubby and bro'! I got credit for everything, but I made sure I spread the credit where it was due!
Anyway, the day was great and very enjoyable!
BTW, Barefut, if there's going to be a wine party... please count me in!
Enjoy today and the rest of the weekend, Everybody!
Big Hugs, Susie
Posted 24 November 2007 - 01:10 PM
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Posted 25 November 2007 - 12:29 PM
Sometimes you just have to show that you are human after all. I try to be very tough and it doen't always work. Yesterday, I cried during a worship service. Oh well, my husband knew better thatn to ask me what was wrong.
Cry, it is OK, it even cleans your soul. Now, make sure to pair it with a nice glass of merlot.
Wishing you a great day,