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#1 Alice02

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Posted 07 August 2008 - 03:05 PM

Hello everyone, I'm still not feeling well and struggling with depression on the top of that. I am on depression medication and still feel so hopeless, I can’t go anywhere, because I simply can not afford to go anywhere for now. Applying for SSDI and SSI has taken toll on me including my patience and financial security. I’m just feeling very down tonight and I know you all understand what mean. However, I just got a letter from the social security requested that I should use the temporary password that they provided me with in their letter to create a permanent password. So I don’t know if this a good sign that I’m going to be approve soon or not. Any thought on this, your input is greatly appreciate.


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#2 barefut

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Posted 07 August 2008 - 03:18 PM

Hi Alice02,

I'm so sorry you are feeling so down. I have been there too. How long have you been on your antidepressant? I'm sure you were told it can take up to 2 months to feel better.

Applying for SSI/SSDI can be a dreadful task and with all the waiting...I do not know about the password. I'm sure someone who has been there/done that will chime in.

I am sending you good vibes of strength, peace and hope.

Hang in there kiddo,

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Posted 07 August 2008 - 03:30 PM

Dear Barefut,

Thank you very much for kind and comfort words. I have been on this depression medication (Mirtazapine) for almost three months now. It really making me eat so much, which too not helping me to feel good about my appearance either. And I can't buy new cloth either. But it mean so much to have people who struggle with same disease as I do.


Much love,


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Posted 07 August 2008 - 08:04 PM

Alice,
You are hurting so much, my heart goes out to you. All antidepressants take a while to have an effect and the effect is usually more like a curtain lifting slowly than a sudden gush of well-being that makes you want to go out and dance and sing. However, if you do not feel that there has been any improvement in the three months that you have been taking this particular medication, I suggest that you call and speak with your doctor. Many antidepressants increase the appetite, but the up side is that they are effective in relieving depression. If the med that you are on is not doing the job, there are many other, similar meds that may be more appropriate for you. The one that you are on,may just not be right for you.

These meds do take time to be effective, they take effect slowly, they cannot be stopped cold turkey in most cases--meaning you must be weaned off of one as you begin another and you must be patient with them as they do take a long time before you really can tell if they are working. As I said before, you will not feel deliriously happy, you will just feel a more level you, not so sad. There are many to choose from and the correct choice must be left to a doctor who can determine which will work best with any other meds you amy be taking and your history and all other factors in your particular case.

Rather than to continue to suffer though, I would suggest that you speak to your prescribing doctor and discuss what is happening to you and how you feel and see if indeed it is time to try another drug for you. It is not fair for you to be in so much pain if something can be done to ease your unhappiness..
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Posted 07 August 2008 - 10:16 PM

Alice:

The password letter means you DID get your disability request. They just sent you that before they notified you. That's how I found out because I called SSD and the approval letter should have come first. The password is for your on-line use. You can use the password to request to have your payments directly deposited to your bank account, as I did. Just go on-line and look around using the password they sent you. There is an area there for you to change it to a password of your choice. Again, you DID get the approval. The password letter comes after approval.
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Posted 08 August 2008 - 03:49 AM

Alice,
I am so sorry that you are feeling so depressed. I think that it would be a good idea to get in touch with your doctor. It sounds like your disability came through. That should make you feel a bit better.
I send hugs your way.
Take care,
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Posted 08 August 2008 - 04:01 AM

Alice02,

You have every reason to feel the way you do. Worrying about your financial situation is a valid reason to feel depressed. The good thing is, it is a temporary situation with a resolution. Once your SSD goes through and you get your official notification, it will be like a burden has been lifted and you will feel so much better. Then you can focus better on your physical healing. It sounds like Truman's been through the notification process where they send you a temporary password. Hopefully the next step isn't too far away and I'm crossing my fingers (mentally because they're bent) for you!

We'll cyber-celebrate when it's official!!


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#8 Alice02

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Posted 08 August 2008 - 05:09 AM

Hello again everyone, first I just want to thank Truman for the tips. I did go online and find out that I was approving for disability and not for the SSI. However, I am sad and disappointed the amount I will be getting from disability is very small not even enough to cover my bills. Due to that the fact I only worked 10 years in this country, I knew that my social will be very small. Therefore I was advised to I apply for both SSI and SSDI so I would receive enough money for to live on. I put on my SSI that only income I have is the a small check that I received from my best friend every month, in agreement that I will pay her back when I get approve. ’m thinking of hiring an Attorney and try to get SSI. But I was told this morning form the social security representative that they go by the amount I’m getting from Disability, if the SSDI is greater than I will not qualify for SSI.

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Posted 08 August 2008 - 05:39 AM

I'm really glad your disability was approved but I'm sorry it's not what you needed. I think if you get one you can't get the other as I don't think you can get both but I'm not 100% sure on that one.

With regards to your depression, I agree that after 3 months you should see a pretty good improvement. You may want to have your doctor decide if you need one in addition to the one you are taking or you need to try a different one. I know my husband takes 2 different ones. He was just like you not getting any relief and then my daughter who is a pharmacist mapped out what he had tried and figured out that he needed one for the dopamine levels in his brain and another one for the sertonin levels. Once she discussed this with husband's doctor and they made the change it was like "boom" his depression was better.

I wish you luck on both fronts - the financial and the depression. For sure they are both connected in where one is causing the other.

Warm hugs to you,

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Posted 08 August 2008 - 06:10 AM

Hi everyone, I’m sorry I’m sot upset that I can’t think clearly and keep on making so many spelling grammar mistakes. I was told that these are the rule and regulations, if my Social Security Benefit Insurance is greater than the Social Security Supplement Income I will not qualify for SSI. When I purchased my apartment I paid my mortgage in full trough a personal loan from my a dearest friend, which I put off the payments until I get approve. I don’t have any pressure from friend to make the payments now, but it hurt not be able to make my payments and pay off my debt that accumulate during this waiting time. During my second interview for SSI, I told the gentleman that my mortgage almost paid. It amazing to me right there at that moment, I had a strong feeling that I will get denial, just from the way how he was asking me all those questions.


Thank you so very much for your support.




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Posted 08 August 2008 - 07:05 AM

Hi Alice,

I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time right now.

As far as SS goes, I don't think any of us get enough to "live" on. I think many are a little naive when they think, "Oh goody I'll get disability and I'll be living a life of ease" Unless a person has no debt whatsoever they would never be able to live on what we receive. I know the amount is different for everyone, but I personally would not be able to live on the monthly amount I get. Granted I have been used to a higher level of living and I'm sure we could scale down if needed. As far as the SSI goes, I wondered who would ever qualify for that because the yearly guidelines in terms of how much money you are allow to make before you qualify was so slow.

Hang in there Love,
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Posted 08 August 2008 - 08:00 AM

Alice:

I believe in order to get SSI, you have to be virtually penniless. SSI counts all your resources with includes bank accounts, cars, property, cash, etc. and according to the website, those dollar amounts are listed as:

The SSI limits for resources that we do count are:

Individual — $2,000
Couple — $3,000

Sweet is absolutely correct. We can't live off SSD. I'm only getting 40% of my salary which I don't think a 16 year old could live off. I've been blessed that I watched my finances all these years and hopefully that will carry me through. With my health insurance and recent property tax increase, I'll be living off $2,000/year from SSD, which doesn't even pay for the dog food for Mia and Ollie. <_<

Basically being unemployable at this juncture, I'm just grateful for any assistance the government will give me. It might be consideration for a new thread, but are there any other benefits for disables such as us?
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#13 Alice02

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Posted 08 August 2008 - 10:30 AM

Dear Pamela,


Thank you very much for kind support words. I got the official approval letter today, informing me with detail on my benefit and that I will be receiving my first check sometimes next month. I have put myself in debt while I was waiting to get approve in order to survive. I understand what you mean Pamela, social security does not care if can’t live on what we receive. However, I have been diagnosed with Scleroderma for more than 30 years, as difficult as always was, I always managed to go to work, sometimes strait from the hospital after having surgeries. So I never once said “Oh goody I'll get disability and I'll be living a life of ease" as you said. In contrary, just hearing the word disable make me depressed. Everyone who knows me, know how much I love to work, by the way all my previous bosses are my friends now. I’m just very upset now after I find out that I will be getting a very small check is not even enough to pay my monthly maintenance further more paying any other bills. What makes the matter worst is my health situation; I can’t even manage to work a part-time job. I have a strong faith a nd hope it will guide me. I posted these topics here, just to get some emotional support from people who are suffering from the same terrible disease as I do and understand what that means. Thank you to you all for your support and kind words. Just to add some new information for everyone trying to apply for SSI, in order to get SSI, your Social Security Disability Insurance has to be less than what your state pay for SSI. Which in my around $635 a month.


Your input is appreciated.

Much of love




Alice