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Barbara Lowe's Life with Scleroderma

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Blame it on the weatherman

This is ridiculous, rain like it was the remnants of a monsoon. I can barely hear myself think such is the force of the storm against the window. You could hardly credit it! Take down my gable end in summer and all it does is permenently throw it down!   Ironic though it may seem, who would believe that we could have yet another summer like the last. We really thought that this year would be different and our home would be completed after almost five years of renovation. If luck played a part,

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Sense of dread!

To wake up to a power failure is one thing, but to awake to the realisation that you have a bereavement in the family is quite another, especially when it's a new day and the outlook looks pretty much the same as you left it.   The situation remained the same as yesterday when we recieved the dreadful news of my father-in law's sudden passing, a very solemn subject for which I apologise for in advance.   The first thing I reached for this morning was the electric kettle -- I badly needed a

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I Want To Go Back!

With a deepening sense of reluctance, I write this blog from my living room with a log fire roaring and winter like conditions raging outdoors. Yes, I'm back home in Blighty far from the warm sun of Crete and the respite of constant raynaud's attacks.   Oh, we all long for a relaxing vacation and that's understandable but for me it's sanctuary. To be free from pain and feel the freedom of loose clothing, to walk without two blocks of ice, and to stay up late without having to pile on the layer

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Back with my memories

Stepping off the last step of the plane Back in old England, I moan once again! The skies were full of rain and grey Why did we have to come home today?   I left a country so full of sun And was back home before it had begun The week flew by without a pause And ended like a mandatory clause Behind, I left a beautiful place That put a glow upon my face No raynaud's attacks for seven whole days I did so many things, I was completely amazed.   I walked so much and even swam A proper

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Ragdoll!

So little time -- so much to do! You'd think we were emigrating rather than going away for a week! I haven't stopped washing, ironing and packing since last week and the most annoying thing has to be when they unpack something to wear just because it happens to be a favourite item of clothing.   I'll be so relieved when we finally get there. Meanwhile, it's all the other bits that concern me! The weeds have grown madly on account of all the wet then sunny weather. My hubby dare not touch any

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No Techno!

Me and computers -- Bah humbug! I never got the hang of jargon or any kind of speed on the keyboard and it showed up rather brilliantly yesterday when trying to access the sclero chat room. Once I'd managed to tap every X in every window I finally came upon the right box and I was in! first problem over then!   I was greeted by loads of Hi's and my little fingers began hitting the keys in pure excitement. It wasn't that easy for me to keep up and before I'd managed to reply to any questions, t

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Let Them Stare!

Just when you thought it was safe! Why am I not surprised that we've had a few days of sun and now we have torrential downpours? It's always the same; this country just stinks when it comes to weather. It's common for us to discuss the weather as a form of common courtesy, no wonder when we depend so much upon it.   The chickens look bedraggled like they've been hosed down with a pipe full of mud. The geese are no longer white but orange since they've been sitting in the sand much to our annoy

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Weird Thoughts!

Men and their playthings! My daft hubby bought a toy which exterminates flies -- true! It's a new fangled thing that electrocutes with one foul swoop! It looks like a tennis raquet but the strings are made of wire. My hubby spent most of the weekend whacking the blighters nearly demolishing all the china and almost hitting himself upon the head at one point. My daughter did the proper job of doing just that when an unsuspecting fly landed upon his bonce whilst he dozed in front of the TV. He lea

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A Really Happy Birthday!

Seeing my friend's face as she walked through the door of the restaurant was a picture worthy of pride of place. It was her birthday and she knew nothing of the surprise that awaited her arrival. Twelve of her closest friends all stood, raised their glasses and sung Happy Birthday. She stood motionless with a dropped jaw and tearful eyes -- this is my best friend, my closest pal, my adopted sister.   After the intial shock, she sat shaking with emotion as everyone gave her presents and cards.

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Taking Flight

I need to get away! That may sound like a plea for help but actually it's for solace and a bit of warmth. The weather is freezing, not literally but you get the gist, I'm sure! I've lit a huge fire and can't seem to pull myself away from it.   In the car I have numerous requests to turn the heating off, my dad for instance, can't stand the heat, my hubby cannot tolerate warmth at all and then there's me freezing! If I put the car heater on, the windows are instantly wound down and then I get

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Happy Radio, Happy Faces.

I'm sat here pondering -- I have a show to do tomorrow and I haven't a clue what I'm doing. My recipe selection for my Dish Of The Week spot is not forthcoming. I've not been able to come up with any ideas since I've had so much to do this week.   A funny moment yesterday when I went to the local residential care home for a meeting. I'd bought some facial moisturiser, a little pampering for my skin. It said: Combat the signs of ageing, wipe away those wrinkles. Well I don't have many on accou

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Mum By The Wayside!

I guess it shows that I don't have much to occupy myself during the day. Serena! you so rightly pointed out that my blog writing is prolific these days almost like I'm competing for the world record and that just about sums up my day! A busy mum simply does not have time to herself and that is why I seem to have so much free time these days to do whatever I please. My daughter is well on her way to the outside world, I just provided the guidance to get her there! What I'm left with now is a hug

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The Sun Has Its Hat On!

"The Sun Has Got it's Hat On - Hip, Hip, Hip Hooray!" I break into song. Us Brits do get excited at the prospect of sunny days. Everyone seems much happier, more pleasent and we even smile!   It's true we are ruled by the weather and it's no wonder really! 365 days of what seemed like an endless winter last year - we had no seasons. Your dare to think what the next few weeks will have in store for us so make the most of today!   We went shopping yesterday afternoon. I cheered myself up with

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Senior Moments

A solitary warble fom a bird not too far from my window. I rolled over in my bed and glaced at the clock -- 3.10 am! I remember thinking, I wish that bird would shut up, at this rate it would wake all the others like a roll call. I could see the geese fom my window as by then I'd got up to see which bird was making all the racket. Their heads were tucked inside their wings and they olnly made an occasional honk. I looked around a very quiet landscape and pictured the whole world sleeping.   No

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The Dentist Chair

Sat nervously in the dentist's chair Wishing that I wasn't there Too many sweets can spoil your smile Let me just reiterate a while It wasn't sweets that caused decay Although I know what you're going to say!   A proper meal I cannot eat Please don't deny me the odd sweet I haven't had very much luck When all I can have is a sweet to suck I know that they are very bad I have no choice and that is sad   My teeth were once a pearly white And many envied my perfect bite I brushed t

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Demfhist!

Dentist! The mere mention of the word causes a reaction no matter who you talk to. "I've just been to the dentist! and all of a sudden that person you were talking to shudders, shakes their head and begins to tell you of the horror that they succumbed to whilst sat in the chair!   "He hurt me and wouldn't stop drilling" a friend said! Her every word was flinched with a facial expresion to match." I hate going to the dentist after that -- poor you!"   I was walking to my car with my face froz

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One Fine Day!

I have to say this quietly -- the sun's shining! Don't tell anyone will you or else it may go away! We managed to get one part of the wall errected last night, after scooping out the rainwater from the foundations. I watched on as my hubby laid each block on the internal wall -- we're up to window level!   There's a certain sense of satisfaction, standing back admiring your handiwork. There's even more sense of achievement when you've waited so long for this moment. It finally looks like we'

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Islands!

There is a well known phrase! "An Englishman's Home Is His Castle" Of course it has some meaning but in my case it's taken literally! I woke this morning to find a moat around our home, no! it's not to stop an invading army, nor was it an intentional feature of our home, more a torrential overnight downpour and deep foundations around our property. It's gone well beyond a joke, I must say! But the sun will come out, oh yes! I hope?   Flaming June is another phrase but the first week of the mon

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Outlook Fine!

Since my goostly happenings, everything is back to normal! My telephone line repaired and I'm online once more much to the delight of my daughter who spent the whole of yesterday tapping away to her hearts delight but not to mine I'm afraid!   Monday morning, it's wet and a bit miserable unlike myself who feels like the cat that's got the cream! Personal triumphs are part of my exsistance these days, getting over one thing and then overcoming another has become as part of my everyday life. I f

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Poultrygeest!

I'm quite used to all eerie happenings and things that go bump in the night! It's no surprise when a lightbulb in a bedroom suddenly switches itself on and likewise off again without any satisfactory explanation. Unexplained footsteps up and down the stairs, around the outside of the gable and doors opening without a breeze. My usual cry is to shout, "Come in." Whether they do or not, they seem to bring nothing but a total sense of ease and certainly no fear.   My daughter fully accepts that h

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Blog About Blogs

When I was first asked to write on the blog section of ISN Sclero Forums, I didn't know what a blog was? I asked my hubby if he knew, and of course being the clever so-and-so he makes out to be, went on to explain that it's something politicians and well known people do all the time! "Look online and you'll see what I mean."   That was quite a long time ago now and I remember to not admitting that I didn't know what I was doing, instead I replied with a resounding, "Sure -- No problem!"   H

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Never Judge A Book By The Cover!

I guess in all of my 47 years. I should have learned that there are certain things you can and cannot do! I'm an expert and an exception to the rule when it comes to plain old common sense, and when brains were being handed out -- I was probably behind my hubby -- way behind!   My heart tells me that I'm still the extrovert 18 year old, my head says, "Pull yourself together woman and act your age." But what does a 47 year old woman really act like? Am I condemmed to a life of slippers, knittin

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Escape!

The weather is holding on to that sunshine for a while longer yet! It's not nearly as warm as yesterday and even then I was feezing.   I've just had fun and games with the goats who decided that the grass was definitely greener on the other side of the fence! Sat in my living room, I just glanced up and looked through my window to see an evil glare staring back at me. Goats have such evil eyes! "Oh no" I thought -- "On my own and 5 goats to herd into a pen."   I rushed to put on my boots fal

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Flattery!

What am I doing sat indoors on such a superb day as this? 70 degrees, no breeze and certainly no place to go of any consequence! I have a full blown Raynauds attack in my feet and in both hands -- seems like it holds no barriers for me! Come rain or shine I walk around in less winter clothing rather than less clothing in general. Can't abide not wearing socks or a jumper albeit a thin wooly one! I'm certainly not 'with it' in a fashion sense!   My self esteem may be running a little low but a

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Spring Cleaning?

I don't need Spring to come indoors -- literally. Oh! I love Spring don't get me wrong, when it's happening out there, when it's happening in your spare bedroom, well that's another matter!   I thought I was dreaming this morning when bird song seemed much closer, louder and more intense than normal. 6am and I had the dawn chorus in full surround sound. Lovely as it may seem, it's a bit disturbing when you open your bedroom door to a huge hole in the side of your house and witness being in the

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