Monday was my 5th treatment. everything went just fine, and normal. I had the appointment at 9.30. For me this is early morning. This requires getting up at 8.30 at the latest. yeah... so not my idea of fun. especially when I didn't sleep so great the night before. First bag of mesna went thru fine, then got the zolfran, and then the nice big bag of cyclophosphamide. About half way thru I started feeling a little fuzzy. my head just didn't feel normal. not really dizzy, and I wasn't nauseous. just fuzzy. The last of the bag went thru and then the second bag of mesna, and then some saline. so yeah. Lots of fluid. plus drinking a diet cola, apple juice, and a 1.5 liter bottle of water. I'm supposed to get pleanty of fluids the day before, the day of, and the day after treatment, and boy did I ever. I told dr. dames about the trip to Oregon later this month, and she gave me her blessing and was excited that I was finally able to get out and do something. She just wants me to be careful and stay warm. That isn't a problem. She also told me that I deserve to take naps. That with the cyclophosphamide, the lung disease, and scleroderma I'm going to be tired and that it was okay if I need to take a nap or two during the day. It's the way our bodies heal. because of the fuzzyness I called mom to come and pick me up. I went home and just layed on the couch watching stuff on the television. I didn't feel well, just fuzzy, and then my body just hurt. and my skin felt weird. I weighed myself before going to bed. I had gained 10 lbs since I was weighed in at the doctors office that morning. and when I was weighed in there I was 5lbs over what I weighed the previous morning. to say the least... I was retaining water, badly. Had a bad night. just didn't sleep very well Monday night. woke up once to go to the bathroom and then tossed and turned and then woke up every hour on the hour. 8.00 came around and I was in the bathroom yet again, this time to be sick. went back to bed and woke up again about an hour later with a nice headache. spent most of the day yesterday sleeping on the couch. Did venture out to get my car, but then ended up on the couch sleeping the afternoon away, with 2 children playing, a television on, and mom and Chelsea talking. Went to bed... late again. but ended up sleeping for 11 hours. I LOVE being able to sleep like that. I feel so much better when I get out of bed. sure I sleep most of the day away, but woke up refreshed and even changed my sheets, made my bed (the aerobic workout), and emptied one of the 2 laundry baskets that were sitting in my room. Sure, now I have to put the clothes away that are folded nicely on my bed. but at least they aren't in a basket anymore and I feel like I have actually accomplished something today. so all in all, not a bad few days. Have only been sick the one time, and am hoping that I'm not sick this month. but won't know that for sure until next week when it usually hits me.