I am Laura. I am forty-three, and after ten years of symptoms, tests, and doctor visits, I have been diagnosed with Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease (UCTD).
I have extreme fatigue (in bed, days at a time), muscle weakness, Raynaud's in hands and feet, extreme nausea, abdominal pain, joint pain, TMJ, low tone hearing loss in both ears, hair loss, lots of upper respiratory infections, slow wound healing, and the list goes on. I have finally had to quit my job (which I loved), but I have been out sick for too many days and each time I go back to work the cycle of sick days/good days starts again.
The rheumatologists that I have seen, have done the following for me: Told me to stop wasting my life, that I am not sick. Patted me on the knee and told me to come back in two months. Diagnosed me with lupus and put me on Plaquenil ; I had a bad reaction to Plaquenil which made my symptoms worse. The muscle weakness and fatigue got worse and then other problems arose. Told me I did not look sick and to "get a life".
As anyone who is going through this knows, having the doctors treat us this way just causes more stress. I had found a wonderful immunologist who diagnosed me with UCTD and referred me to yet another rheumatologist, who again told me to stop wasting my life trying to find out what is wrong. This was after I told her that I had been out sick fifty-six workdays over the past year and have finally had to quit my job. Her response was that I was probably depressed and that would get worse with quitting my job. She prescribed an antidepressant. This was after telling me I did not have an illness! Ugh.
If anyone reads this and is going through the same problems, I would love to hear from you. People who are not feeling these symptoms have a difficult time understanding. I can't tell you how many people tell me "you do not look sick" after asking how I am feeling. And then, of course, they come up with their own reasons why I feel like this.
I'm sorry this is such a long posting, but I hope it helps someone else see that they are not alone, because sometimes it feels like it to me.
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Story posted 8-27-02
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