I was diagnosed with scleroderma in January of 1994. I was thirty-two years old at the time. My symptoms started when I was cold or stressed. My hands would turn purple, almost black. I also had a wound on the top of my index finger on my left hand that would not heal, and it was very painful.
I went to the doctor then not only because of my hands, but because I had a cold that I was nursing for three months. I was getting frequent nosebleeds that were pretty intense.
My family doctor did some blood tests and found my ANA and Sedimentation rates were elevated. He suspected scleroderma. He referred me to a doctor I had seen fifteen years prior, a rheumatologist who treated scleroderma patients, or so he said.
When I was sixteen years old, I had surgery to remove an ovarian cyst the size of a basketball weighing in at eighteen pounds. It was after this surgery that I developed swollen hands that ached constantly. This progressed to all the joints in my body, and this rheumatologist said, "If you do not lose the weight, it will be like hell on roller skates." He ignored the fact I had elevated tests even at that point. He was not able to help me this time, either.
I was very scared, as my hands were getting worse. I was having a hard time breathing, and I felt miserable all the time. Then I located my current doctor, a rheumatologist who specializes in and conducts research in scleroderma right in my city. A godsend! He has helped me more than I can say, not only through his obvious knowledge of the disease, but with his compassion and humanitarian qualities! He has treated me successfully for the lung involvement. I was put on chemotherapy for two years and my pulmonary function tests (PFTs) are back in the normal range.
My situation includes vascular involvement, and I have fought ulcers on my fingers throughout the entire illness. My first severe ulcer finally healed after a year. I was not so lucky with the next ulcer. It had advanced such that the nail fell off, and the first third of my finger was covered with a mere sheath of skin that was black and becoming gangrenous.
I was working at the time as a veterinary technician for a busy emergency clinic with animals that really did not care if it really hurt when they smashed your hand against the treatment tables. After trying for a year and a half to get the finger to heal, the decision was made to amputate. The pain that kept me up in tears all night, every night, was finally gone. Yes, it took some time to get used to the finger being gone, but let's face it, the finger was never going to be the same anyway.
I have had other trials and tribulations that have lead me to conclude that working like I was accustomed, was no longer possible. I have filed for disability. I keep busy with other activities, including working out at the spa four or five times a week.
I have found some time for me now and with the Lord's help, my life is heading in a new direction. I will accept what comes and learn to live with it as we all do. I wish all of you the best.
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Story posted 6-4-99
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ANA and Sed rates
Ulcers on Fingers
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